My beloved Fall has kicked me on my ass this week.
Forgive my lack of posting as I’ve been laid up or go right to bed once I come home. My goal, with all this, is to start something and keep it going, no matter how busy life gets or what life throws at you.
For the first time ever, I think (because it takes a lot to get me into a Dr’s office) I had a 24 hour flu combined with terrible allergies. Yup, I sure am self diagnosing myself! Poor Stevie came down with the same thing and we were laid up in bed. I slept for 18 hours. 18 hours!
The last few weeks it has been absolute misery getting out of bed. Even when my mind is awake my body has been refusing to go with it. Part of training, I suppose? Has this happened to anyone else?
My friends and family say that one terrible character trait of mine shines bright when my body gives up on me and that is being stubborn.
Hi. My name is Sarah and I’m stubborn.
I don’t meant to be, I really don’t, but I can only lounge around for so long when I start feeling bad about myself. I could be getting work done, taking a walk to explore my neighborhood, RUNNING! I get it. The point of being sick is to surrender yourself to your bed and let those white blood cells do their healing. But does that burn calories? No. Will it help my training? Absolutely not. Is any of this rational thing. HELL NO!
Yet it is how I think. I can’t help it. I took off of work on Wednesday and after waking up at 12 to get us breakfast, I told myself, “F this. I’m going to do my planned four miles — just after a quick nap”. Five hours later I realized that wasn’t happening as I had completely passed out. Steve was eyeing me and even though I could certainly out run him any day of the week, I decided to listen to my body and just chill out.
I made myself busy by making “Jewish Penicillin” as my Dad calls it, also known as homemade soup. There was no matzah meal in my local grocery, which was highly disturbing, so I had to do with whole wheat noodles. I used some fresh herbs from my friend’s garden and veggies. Oh the power of poultry. A few sips immediately made me feel better. I also stuffed my bod with all kinds of veggies and green juices. Vitamins and nutrients do wonders!
Still needing to do more, I decided to get a head start of dinner the next day but throwing pork shoulder, a jar of all natural BBQ sauce, diced onions and a can of light beer in my slow cooker. Set that bad boy on low for 12 hours and it was perfection. One less thing to worry about for the week. Back to bed at 10, no way I wasn’t going to work the next day.
I woke up feeling great but made sure to drink tons of fluids along with fruits and veggies. I laced up on my lunch break thinking, I’ll go as far as I’m able:
7.00 in 1:00:14
I was shocked and felt amazing. I kept this on the low, in fear that friends would yell at me, but I did it damnit and most importantly, I felt wonderful.
I received a Self magazine in the mail, I was awarded a year subscription after attending their event in Central Park (holler for SWAG!) and read an article about being addicted to exercise. I scoffed at the title but as I had nothing else to do on my commute home, I read it and was promptly shut up.
Crap. I might be addicted to exercise.
I fit all the criteria: feeling bad about missing a work out, constantly worried about gaining weight, losing muscle mass, letting exercise interfere with your social life. I started feeling terrible about beating myself up about missing one day to be sick. Has this training taken over my soul?
The mind is a powerful thing. Exercise is a powerful thing. Exercising produces endorphins to make the mind happy. It is an easy feeling to become addicted to. Letting it impact your day-to-day life and well being, well, thats something to check yourself on.
I will not ruin my training by missing a day. I will not gain weight after enjoying a burger. I will not tarnish my social life and relationships by letting training be number 1.
This is my new mantra. I love exercising and eating well. That is something I will not stop. Ever. Regulation is key. Listening to yourself is key and giving yourself a pat on the back for getting through any work out, let alone a 31 mile week, is worth celebrating.
This overcast Friday morning I planned to do a 6 mile run to compensate for Wed. I did:
5.02 miles in 45:38 + 1hour vinyasa flow
and I am absolutely, completely okay with that. Somedays you got it, other days you don’t. I will enjoy my burger and beer with my fiancé tonight and feel damn good about it.
You’re amazing. Treat yo’ self!